We've been living on board the Africa Mercy for more than a week already. On our arrival from the airport we tumbled out of the Land Rovers and walked up the gangway for the first time, some of us gasping like fan girls, others gawking over the railing to see that our floating home was in fact sitting in actual water... and then there was me, let's be honest, doing both.
They led us up through the reception area of the Africa Mercy and into the dining room, where there was some last-minute paperwork waiting for us. I kept looking up from the table to the window and and back again, distracted by the sight of the world outside slowly bobbing up and down. Although I'm getting better at finding my way around the ship, I still haven't gotten used to that sight. So far I barely feel the movement, but we're told that will change once we leave port and start sailing for Cameroon near the end of this week. In the meantime we're content exploring our island home while we're here. Coming from the beach back to the shipyard, it's hard to believe the two are only a 30-minute walk from each other!
Playing around at Playa de las Canteras |
The view from Deck 7 |
Like I mentioned in my previous post, a highlight of our training back in Texas was hearing stories from ISC staff and from other trainees who have worked on the ship before--stories from recent years on the Africa Mercy, as well as stories from the early years of Mercy Ships. I wanted to share one story that stuck with me.
In 2014, the Africa Mercy was scheduled to sail to Guinea, on the west coast of Africa. However, at that time the Ebola outbreak was picking up and making headlines. The Africa Mercy, while it is a floating hospital, is not designed or equipped for medical relief of that scale, and so the decision was made to change course and spend the year in Cotonou, Benin.
Then in August 2014, Ebola spread (although briefly) to Nigeria, Benin's neighboring country. Not knowing how the outbreak would progress from there, Mercy Ships feared that the presence of a well-known hospital ship in Benin might draw Ebola victims to Cotonou in search of treatment. The Africa Mercy would not actually be able to help any more than it could in Guinea, and it would have potentially caused more damage by starting a new outbreak where there otherwise might not be. For this reason, and through a crazy turn of events, the ship changed course for a second time and sailed all the way down and around to Madagascar, where it stayed until mid-2016.
It's humbling to think that the health and safety of a country might have been drastically changed by the course of one ship, and even more humbling to know that I flew into Cotonou, totally unaware of it.
In the summer of 2014, I was getting ready to work in Cotonou for 10 months with Wycliffe Bible Translators, starting that September. I had been following the news of the outbreak, and knew of the cases reported in Nigeria. I was feeling afraid, and my fear, left unchecked, caused me to turn inward. Preoccupied with fear, I barely thought to pray, and when I did, they were selfish prayers centered around my safety and desire to "just go already!" Looking back this sounds to me like a chapter of The Screwtape Letters. I wanted healing to come to West Africa, but was this prayer ever really separate from my personal desire to follow through with the plans I had been working on all summer, to go on my adventure in West Africa and come back in one piece? You know, the plans I had written out in a letter and sent to friends and family, explaining my intent to leave the country for a year and asking for resources?
Side note: Here is a blog post written by my amazing friend Emilie about not being paralyzed by fear. I wish I could have read it back in 2014. Even if you don't read it, check out the Francis Chan video that she links! (also at the bottom of this post)
It was in this season that God reminded me:
"Perfect love casts out fear."
1 John 4:18
"Be still, and know that I am God."
Psalm 46:10
There were many more "worthy" prayers for West Africa and the victims of Ebola. I kind of wish God ignored mine and listened to those instead, but I think He heard them all.
"Search me, oh God, and know my heart;
test me and know my anxious thoughts."
Psalm 139:23
Why so much anxiety, Kate? I was never alone. I believe in a God who knows what he's doing, and furthermore, I was surrounded by the prayers of many other believers. The same prayers that surrounded me then go with me now. I've been so blessed by my supporters. I don't take it for granted that many of them have chosen for the second time to invest their resources, time, and prayers in my attempts to participate in what God is doing around the world.
If you have any insight and wisdom on this, I encourage you to share your perspective on it. This has brought up new questions for me about God's character and the nature of prayer, and I feel like I've only scratched the surface.